When buzzing creative energy slips into restless agitation
A pattern I'm witnessing & working on, in three letters
Dear Reader,
Three (3) letters for you guys today, painting quite an interesting arc. The main thing I’m bringing awareness to (& trying my best to quell) is how my buzzing creative energy often slips into a sort of frenetic agitation. It’s such a fine line!
Also, the reason I didn’t send the first letter right away was because, after writing it, I procrastinated an intuitive nudge to shift community platforms, which led to a backlog of creative expression (since I wanted to link to the correct platform in the letter). It was only after taking action on that intuition that I felt free to send these out. This points to a deeper lesson I’m learning about the importance of collapsing the time between intuition and action, so as to remain in the flow of life.
Hope you enjoy these letters—and here’s to staying in the flow.
Loving you,
George
Letter #1: Tuesday, May 20, 2025
Dear Reader,
Good morning. It’s 8:09am and I’ve just sat at one of my favorite cafés in Ridgewood. I couldn’t have got out of my apartment sooner. I’m so ready to get out of there.
I woke up this morning with a buzzing, frenetic energy that made it really difficult to meditate. Sound familiar? :~)
I tried my best and sat for about 17 minutes.
A lot of that frenetic energy is coming after the mastermind weekend in Montréal, from which I’m now bursting with insights.
I woke up with about 100 ideas about how I ought to tweak my business but I caught myself real quick before jumping in because like I’ve shared before, that particular quality of buzzing energy can slip into anxiety on a dime.
Know thyself.
Instead of expressing that energy by tweaking my business funnel, or suppressing it by forcing myself to meditate for longer, I went for a run around the neighborhood.
Now that’s what I’m talking about.
I had a big realization this weekend.
I have been looping around a similar pattern for years now.
I make the mistake of thinking that once I choose the right platform, or the right business model, or the right social media strategy, that I’ll be saved.
This leads to days, weeks, and months of energy wasted frenetically trying to fix stuff that was never broken in my business or social media strategy to begin with.
This all an unconscious attempt to construct a front or scaffolding so I can avoid the work I actually need to do, which is to go deeper into whatever inner wound makes me think I have to construct the perfect business funnel in order to be successful. That’s exactly what it is—just another scaffolding, another distraction, another way to procrastinate doing the real work.
This became tremendously clear over the weekend.
When you reach a certain level of conscious business & entrepreneurship,
Entrepreneurship has nothing to do with entrepreneurship.
Making money has nothing to do with making money.
Business has nothing to do with business.
Social media strategy has nothing to do with social media strategy.
All of these things are distractions, fronts for the deeper inner work that actually needs to be done.
Whenever anybody has a problem in their business, whether they can’t figure something out, don’t know the next step, suck at sales, have a question about copy, or funnels, or social media strategy, or pricing, or what have you, it always points to a deep fear or limiting belief or inner wound. Always.
For example: it’s not that you don’t know how to make an engaging Reel that does well in the algorithm. It’s that you are holding back; you are afraid to show up with Truth. Why are you afraid to show up with Truth? Some deeply rooted, ancient fear that if you show up as you are, you will be ostracized.
The work that you thought would be about “learning Instagram” then becomes a deep soul excavation.
This is the kind of work that happened over the weekend in Montréal.
It had nothing to do with entrepreneurship, and yet, it had everything to do with entrepreneurship.
I have more to say about what I learned and experienced this weekend, but I’m not interested in trying to squeeze it out here like a ketchup bottle.
Instead of forcing anything, I’ll trust that more insights will emerge naturally on our Freedom Calls and throughout my expression & content going forward.
Loving you always,
George Poulos
Letter #2: Wednesday, May 21, 2025
Dear Reader,
During last night’s Freedom Call it really hit me that I need to reconnect to a more disciplined spiritual practice again.
My meditations have been rushed and hazy—doing it just to do it. I haven’t been taking my weekend detoxes (quite the opposite, actually). And I’ve been ensnared in the seduction of the world, losing my connection to what’s Real and True.
Last night I re-opened my meditation journal, re-opened A Course in Miracles, and had what felt like my first earnest session in a while.
I reconnected to my practice of gratitude for the day past.
Oh, not to mention, I reconnected to doing a twice-daily meditation practice; something I had been skipping.
Then in the morning I reconnected to my surrender practice, surrendering the day ahead and asking God to guide me. I wrote the ACIM daily lesson on a post it-note and slipped it into my pocket.
Dear God,
I see that I’ve been trying to do it all on my own.
Please help me.
Please help me surrender to You.
Amen.
Love,
George
Letter #3: Thursday May 22, 2025
Dear Reader,
Good morning. It’s 8:01am.
Deep breath.
Agitation.
Buzzing energy.
It’s a bit too much.
Last night I made an effort to re-engage with my meditation practice in a deeper way.
Evening session focused on gratitude for the day past, morning session focused on surrendering the day ahead, and no phone in between sessions. Overnight becomes a sacred boundary. Also reading the daily lesson in ACIM before each session. Last night I even wrote the lesson on a post-it and brought it around with me. I took it out of my pocket and looked at it about 100 times throughout the day.
I also turned my phone off yesterday at around 5pm and didn’t turn it on again until just now.
It felt really good.
The agitated energy eventually settled.
And I felt a deep, peaceful presence again.
I did get hit with surging intuitive downloads just before going to sleep, which I scribbled in several pages of my journal.
These kinds of surging downloads always seems to emerge from that deep stillness state, yet I’m becoming aware of how easily this kind of energy can slip into agitation.
I’m becoming super watchful of this pattern now—I watched the whole thing unfold last night into this morning.
I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to turn my phone on this morning.
Of course when I did, I had missed a text from the broker, asking if she could show my apartment to a few more people last night. 🤦🏻♂️
I’m desperate for a longer retreat, but my worldly circumstances have got me hooked.
I’ve also been unsure what to do about my creative expression during this swing of agitated energy. It all feels a bit chaotic. Keep going, or wait for my energy to settle again? I’ll keep thinking about it.
One thing’s for sure is, I can’t wait to turn off my phone again tonight.
(Oh wait, but what if the broker needs me… shit).
Dear God,
I can’t do this on my own.
Please help me.
Amen.
Love,
George
This first letter really spoke to deeply to a wound I'm healing right now. I know we discussed it during the freedom call, but just wanted to reiterate how valuable this insight is. Loving you. ps hope you get to turn your phone off soon.